Unleashed from the Edge-My Personal reveal

My heart has been blown open in the most peculiar way. As I mentioned to you last week, my business...and my identity...decided to pivot. This has been in the works for a total of about 4 months. I thought that in October, it was complete, but I was wrong. This final shift sliced me open, straight to my core. During my meditation one morning, a single phrase came from the Mother The Sacred Sadist. My breath stopped. Something ancient stirred low in my belly. A stillness so vast it felt like being watched by God .....now that those words hit this page, where do I begin? For many years now, The Great Mother has taken me DEEP into the three primary wounds of humanity: Power Sex Money I've been exploring them, not through concept but through direct physical, emotional, and spiritual contact. Meeting every wound, trauma, limiting belief, shadow, and slice of shame that I held, my family held, my soul held, my OverSoul held....I think you get the idea. Loss Lust Greed Manipulation Rejection ........ whatever the emotion, you name it, She has taken me to its core. And the deeper I went, the lonelier I became. The kind of loneliness that doesn’t come from being unseen, but from being too far ahead. Standing at the edge while others look to you for direction. Holding the vision before language exists for it. Loving deeply, leading boldly, and knowing there is no one to hand the weight to.

The solitude of the one who goes first. Moments by myself, holding levels of pain that I didn't believe the human body was capable of. Intense, severe...pain. Pain that lived in my chest like a crushing weight. In my womb with a shameful silence. In my spine, like I was being split open from the inside. My mind wanted to distract me from it. My limbic system attempted to avoid it at all costs. But my intuition headed straight into it. And what always emerged from the very place my body begged me to escape? Ecstasy. A world that few understand. Sure, it sounds nice. Doesn't everyone desire it? There is even a drug named after it because of the psychological implications of the name. But to actually experience this state isn't something many have.

It isn't joy It isn't happiness It is a full body state of bliss. Energetic 0rgasm pulsing through your body. A "high" like nothing else possible for humans. But true ecstasy is not handed out like a pill on the street. You cannot buy it. You can only reach the ecstatic state IF you are willing to experience the depth of your own pain and suffering. That is its secret. That is its beauty. Because the ecstatic state is the state of unity. And unity does not judge good or bad, right or wrong. Unity is absolute, unconditional love. And that love yearns to shine the light on all of the parts of you that keep hidden. Locked away. Too painful. Too much. After my spontaneous Kundalini awakening in 2014, I came face-to-face with this teaching. And I have spent over 10 years in its tutelage. A devoted disciple. So when the words, Sacred Sadist, entered my heart, I leaned in. Not because I understood. Not because I was ecstatic. But because its delicious polarity revealed its singularity. "Where polarity meets, God is revealed." - a phrase I have taught for years. So without my mind, I sank into my body. I breathed the Sacred Sadist in. I let her show me who she was. And she blew my heart wide open. Aww..ecstasy...its magic never ceases to amaze me. So without further ado, I reveal to you my heart. I reveal to you, my innermost sanctum. The edge. The point of creation Where pain meets pleasure Suffering meets bliss And ecstasy is unleashed. I invite you to explore my new landscape. My website - and new school - Ecstasia My podcast rebrand My YouTube

From bound to liberated Numb to ecstatic I make what you hide, Holy Alara Sage The Sacred Sadist